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Where do your beliefs come from?
Posted on May 6th, 2007
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LittleDove
LittleDove
This is in Response to the Questions and Reflections for May 06, 2007:
My beliefs come from a combination of alot of different factors. Most of my beliefs are from the spiritual part of me ,the part that is so connected to God , The Creator , Spirit ( whatever his name) from my parents , the faith I was brought up in ,and the good influences in my life. I had to learn to take what was good and to discard what was not so good . It is called discernment. I know that my Views and beliefs have changed somewhat over the years but that is only normal and comes with age and experience . Now that I am Forty something, I have found my own way of believing which is somewhat different than that of my parents. I had to learn all of these things on my own because of my own experiences with physical trauma and death and near death and living with disabilities . I adore my parents and thank them for all they gave me throughout my life which was a basis but my real learning and growing has come with the awakening of new levels of awareness and knowing this is just a beginning of a new life .
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This is my experience as well…. when I was in my 30's I thought I knew everything.. but now that I am in my 40's… I've grown to know myself in a deeper more spiritual way.
Hi Lisa , yes ,I agree with you there… you know how when a child is 2yrs old you hear people say you have a child in the “terrrible Twos” and the ” What Ever Teens “ well I think that the 40 's should be termed the ” Age of the awakening” it seems that most people seem to really awaken to who they really are inside ,in their 40's …
Now that we have life all figured out, it should be smoothe sailing frome here on out even through our “Golden Years”
Forty-plus is a time when we're no longer focusing on raising a family (except for those people who still instead that they're somehow incomplete without children). We've come into our own personhood…especially women, but men too…and can re-focus on our connections with things further away than our own bellybuttons! To me, my connection with the Divine Source is personal; I can no more explain how I got 'here' than I could tell you how you can find your own connection to whatever you consider divine. Divinity is that which arises out of all things and connects us inextricably to each other.
I think on some level, I always “knew” God. All of my youngest memories include an awareness of some kind of consciousness higher than my own or than anything around me. Within my family of origin, we were Southern Baptists mostly, so I was raised in that tradition. My aunts and uncles and great-aunts and great-uncles were very often my Sunday School teachers as I grew up. But from a very early age, like 2 or 3, I can remember lying awake nights having very spiritual conversations with myself and with God. In those conversations, I probed not only what the preacher said on Sunday, but many questions about life and death and the afterlife and where I had been before I was born into my family and where God had been before creation. Sometimes my parents were frightened by the spiritual ideas I came up with in the night and tried to tell them about or ask them about in the daylight. God questions were the center of my universe from very early on.
There was also some Native American blood in the family, and some very spiritual/mystical leanings that I picked up from various family members. Unusual spiritual activity was fairly common in my family. A lot of them were “psychic or faye,” and intuitive knowledge of many kinds was common among us.
In many ways throughout my life, the Christian doctrine and the “occult” or hidden knowledge have struggled and created conflict within me. In my 30's, I completely “threw out” all things “occult.” Now, in my 50's, I've come to realize that I cannot “throw out” my spiritual intuition altogether, and in fact, it is not desireable to do so. It was God who knit me together in my mother's womb. He made me the person I am with all my sensitivities and leanings. Who am I to judge God's creation?
I believe He has some use for me yet, and I hope to step out and boldly do the work for which I was placed here.